My fight

This week has been so hard on me
And you weren't there
You knew what was going on
But didn't seem to care

I love her more then I can describe
I miss her more then words can say
I don't know how to live without her
Or even how to get through another day

People say it's for the best
That now, her pain is gone
But my pain has just started
I'm carrying the guilt of what I've done

For now I put on a social mask
But cry myself to sleep each night
This isn't something I can share with you
I guess this is my fight

For my sweet little rat, who I loved