I don�t want to be here
With them, and all their smiles and laughs
It feels like they can see me
See through my disguise,
Through to my bruised and bleeding heart.
I don�t want them to see me,
The way I am,
The way I will be.
Or the projector playing those
Haunting memories in my head
I don�t want them to know.
The me that comes out,
When I walk out that door.
The one with the other face,
The one streaked with makeup
And the other life
That far, far from perfect life
I don�t want this to happen
This disaster,
I can�t make it
I can�t be that strong
Things from my past have broken me down
This time I won�t last
I don�t want to be here
I want to run away,
Away from here, to be alone
I want to climb into bed
And hide from the world
And watch the wonderful slides
That run through my mind.
Times from this day, and smiles from that
I don�t want to just remember,
Or feel this pain.
I want them to be real
I want to go back to those days
When everything was right
I want to be�
Anywhere but here.
