My blade

The pain fights at me like an angry beast trying to get out of it's cage
i''ve taken my blade away, but she yells at me to draw her back
i entrapped by the desire to abolish my pain ,
my blade is the easy way out, i wont take her back
i write and i write but it's not enough anymore
how do i deal with this, i speak my feelings, i yell them,
it's not enough, i will not retrive my blade
i will fight back i tired of answering to her, taking her orders
my problems my pain, i will not make excuses any more
i will look them in the eye, challenge them,
they are insistent, manipulative, Strong,but i am stronger, I'll survive
i will not back into a corner, i will not quiver in fear
i am a beautiful, loving person she will not take that from me ever again
i Will grow, and mature, find it deep in myself to overcome everything
i am going to free.