This isn't gonna be a poem. i just need to vent so bare with me and comment if u think u know how i feel and if u have some answers for me lol
i dated this guy. he lives in another town. we went out for two weeks and he broke up with me because we live like twenty minutes away and we barely saw eachother. he said i love you the first night we started going out. i had some doubts because he felt so strong so early in the relationship. but than as days went by i had stronger and stronger feelings.... we broke up about three months ago. and i still think about him and care about him very very much. we talk now and than and sometimes he'll tell me how much he loves and misses me. and that he wants to get back together he is just really busy right now with baseball so he wants me to wait till summer. i didn't think i could cuz i don't like boyfriends during the summer. but i guess i can make an exception for him.
i went to his game the other day and as soon as i saw him all these feelings came rushing back. i didn't think i felt as strong as i did about him. bottom line i miss him so much and i'd do anything to get back together with him like now. i have been thinking about him non stop. but theres one thing that scares the s**t outta me. he is the only guy that can get my mind off of the guy i thought i was inlove with. i still think i'm inlove with that guy but now i think i'm inlove with my ex. no guy was ever able to do that. but the whole time i was at his game no other guy in the universe mattered.
i dont' know what to do. i want to see him so bad. and tell him how much i love him. but the thing is he's the one that ims me sometimes and starts ranting how much he loves me and he's sorry he hurt me. the whole day ppl have been coming up to me asking what's wrong.and that i had a certain look on my face.. i no longer care what guys in my school think of me. maybe it was just today but this is something that has never happened. i always and i mean always have more than one guy on my mind. but not at his game.
