Deep Inside

I still don't know why
I fell this way
After all this time
I think about you night and day

But deep inside
I'll always know
That it can never be again
That I'll always be alone

But please let me know one thing,
One thing so i can move on
Was it worth all the hell you put me through
Just to end up gone

I let you know how much i love you
And how much i really cared
But no matter how many times i did
You still said how you were scared

We had been through hell together
We had even created new life
And no matter what would happen
I wanted you as my wife

But God had a different plan
For us and our baby boy
I guess he wanted something new
Thats why my heart was broken like a toy

After all that we had been through
And all that we survived
There was only one thing we couldn't beat
And that was the day you died

I just want you to know
I don't know if your watching me right now
But if you are
Baby i need you here and I'll proudly cry it loud

I guess this is goodbye
And i may not like to talk about the life we had
But i want your to know
Deep inside i want you to know I'm not mad.