Are you disgusted with my horrendous bulk?
My colossal mass, (My withering form)
Do you despair as I do, of my gross obesity?
My gelatinous immensity, (My shrinking contours)
Is that revulsion in your eyes, to look upon this bulging creature?
My rippling flesh, (My empty skin)
What thoughts prevail in your emptiness?
My undeserving attention, (My burdened love)
Are you truly jealous of this unworthy burden?
My increasing load, (My careful gratitude)
Do you think it's easy to accept this damned direction?
This unnecissary guidance (This vital safety)
Is it hard for you to think I am getting better?
Do you care I am improving? (It's killing me)
Is it difficult to know I am getting worse?
Does it bother you I am declining? (It's saving me)
I know you're better than me now.
Did you know you always were?
I see you're doing well (dying)
It's good to know you're trying to be happy
(It's heartbreaking that you'd leave me behind)
