Deep

I'm so desperate inside my mind, how i am i to survive. Everyday with every second my life is changing right before me. Yet I'm left in the past of my life, I'm hurting so much inside. Yet i keep my pain deep within. I'm finding it hard just to wake up in the morning, every breathe i take is another 1 less. I'm finally falling apart and i have no self control. How deep must i go before i drowned.