I am starting to wonder what I'm doing again.
Why I'm doing this again?
Knowing what the future is, I still yearn the love.
I get frustrated, confused,
I start telling people lies about who I like.
You pull me from side to side,
from liking you and not liking you.
You come so close that I feel your warmth,
but then I try to touch you,
and the separation won't let me get close.
Its either you give me 100%, or it doesn't feel right all the way through,
I don't want to be your number two,
your second choice,
or your backup plan,
I think I deserve better than that.
But no matter how much I try to make things right for you.
I wave off to the side, admire your kindness,
your respect to me, to yourself and others,
your emotional commitment.
The strength in you is what pulls me back,
the love in you is what hooks me.
But pleas don't change because of me,
Don't break her heart because of what I say.
I'm merely a speck of the love in your life,
I'm merely the girl who tries to set things right, for you and me.
But please look at me, and look at her,
Does the answer of happiness lay in one?
Does the answer of love lay in any?
No influence, no convincing,
It your chose.
Because in the end,
It wont be about the words, the influences or the convincing,
it will always be about the feelings.
