School play
on a friday night
that will change my life forever.
That night
was last night.
Intermission,
Me and my friends
decide to ditch it
and go for a ride.
We where joking around,
until,
my friends tell me they have a
Secret.
and want me to guess.
They both had unusual grins.
I sit there.
them in the front seat,
me in the back,
them
older,
me,
younger.
We begin to drive again
I give up and ask them what they mean?..
We drive into taco bell
and
they both turn and
look at me,
then at each other.
We're bi.
These where my FRIENDS!
and now,
they are no more then strangers.
I sit their shocked.
My face flushes,
i am suddenly,
afraid, uncomfortable,
and confused.
They ask me if
i am okay with that.
I smile
and i say,
Duh. of course.
But all i was thinking was
Dear Lord Jesus get me out of here!
Then,FACING
each other they
...kiss.
I still have a Picture of them,
Frozen in my mind.
of them,
Together.
We get our order,
and leave,
but
our ride wasn't over,
not yet.
They take me to the beach.
The whole way their i was
trying to act like
everything was okay.
but everything was
the opposite.
We get out and walk
to a life guard stand
and sit
then they tell me
how it all,
Started.
I listen,
trying not to hurl.
Looking into the Darkness of the ocean waves
wanting to drown my sorrows.
So afraid
So confused.
So alone.
We get back into the car
and drive back to school.
The whole time
i just wanted to jump out of
the car
and land somewhere
far away
from them.
injured or not,
anything would
be better.
We turn into the school lot.
And Park.
I stayed in the car
with them, sitting
trying not to be rude.
when all i wanted to do
was get back to humanity.
Big Mistake.
They lean into each other.
I sit their,
quivering,
my hand on the door handle,
My brain telling me to handle this maturely
My heart telling me to get out and run..
<My heart is ripped and torn,
its unidentiful,
to weather or not
its even a heart anymore.>
