God why am I not dead?
Why have you not sent me to hell?
Hell can’t possibly hurt worse then the torment I feel right now
The torment of the devastation I caused my family
Knowing that I only deserve the hell that I wrought
That the world will not stop spinning for my rotting corpse
It will not cease to change seasons with my passing
God why am I not dead?
Why have you not sent me to hell?
Must I live through this torment that I have caused
Is this my punishment for the terrible things I have done?
Will I ever be forgiven?
I do not deserve your forgiveness nore those whose life I destroyed
I am a nothing more then a wasted soul upon this earth.
