I'm Sorry, I Love You

[Please read the whole thing. It came from deep down. I wrote this after Travis and I broke up. It is good. Comment and rate. Thank you]

I'm trapped in a world that I can't take.
Where every thing's unrealistic and fake.
I pretended I was glad you went away.
These four walls closing more on me everyday.
I'm dying inside, and nobody knows it but me.
I put on a show.
The pain is real even if nobody knows.
I just keep on thinking about what we had.
I'm missing you.
I carry a smile when I'm so broken.
Now I'm nobody without you.
I'm trembling inside.
A million worlds couldn't say how I feel.
I hope I'm not the only one.
Sometimes I just wish I could disappear.
I wish someone would take me far away from here.
There's no happiness surrounding me.
Hate and ugliness is all I see.
I want to leave it all behind.
I just wish i could disappear.
I've waited for this.
I've made myself so sick.
I wish I'd stayed asleep today.
I never thought this day would end.
I hold my breath and wait until I shake, but if I had you faith then I could make it safe.
I try to laugh about it.
Hiding the tears in my eyes.
Being away from you, it freezes me deep inside.
You've never know how I actually feel.
How it feels, to be totally in love and to not be in your arms at the most wanted times.
You've never known what is truly behind my smile, or the reason behind every tear drop that falls from my eyes.
You've never known what it feels like to be me.
I try to act like I don't care, but everyone knows that I have been falling apart without you.
Can't you see it?
I love you more than you could ever imagine.
It's in my eyes, it's in my voice, it's in my smile.
I'm so different when you're around, so much happier.
You really do mean everything to me.
I wish you could really understand how truly sorry I am.
I never meant to hurt you so badly.
By hurting you, I have hurt myself even more.
Knowing what I did to you causes me so much pain.
It kills me more and more inside each day.
I regret what I did, and I would do anything to change it.
It was the biggest mistake I have ever made.
I need you in my life.
Without you I am not happy.
You are the best thing that has ever happened to me.
You are so amazing.
The way I feel about you is indescribable.
When I'm with you I forget about everything that I can't
take.
I forget about everything but me and you.
When you hold me in your arms it makes me feel comfortable and safe.
You give me hope that things do get better.
Being in your arms in the best place in the world.
Every time you hold me I have to force the tears back in my eyes because I'm afraid to let go.
I'm afraid to lose you.
You are the only thing that keeps me sane.
You're the only one I'd be with until the end.
When I come undone you bring me back again.
Without you I lose myself.
There is nothing in this world that I want more than you.
There is no one else who could take your place.
Don't give up on me yet.
Don't forget who I am.
I know I'm not there yet but don't leave me here alone.
I can't imagine one more day without you.
All I care about is you.
I'll always want you in my life.
I just can't explain.
I can't explain the way I feel.
Nothing else matters to me.
There's not a feeling in this world that can describe all of the joy you bring me.
I love you.