Night &day

Tell myself over and over again that you don't desreve my tears,
you never deserved me,
and evrything i gave to you.

i make my self sick replaying the moments we had together in my head,
nights like these i wish i never met you at all,
i am the way i am because of you.

and the funny part is you have no idea, and if you do you don't care,
so never feed me that stupid line again, im sick of hearing
i care about you.

cause if you cared or gave a fcuk at all it wouldn't have turned out this way.

i do owe you one thing though,
i never said thank you.

if it wasnt for these night i wouldn't have learned never to fall hard
i wouldn'ty have learned not to trust people so easily,
not to fall for the first kiss, or even worse the first smile<3
i wouldn't have realised how much better off i am without you,
how strong of a person i can be.

you made me independed,
you made me realise that people can say one thing but mean another.
its the nights like these that make me realise how much i loved you off,
and how much i hate you now..
its nights like these that remind myself never to fall for the " i care for you" lines, or even worse the "i love you's"
its nights like these that make me realise its not you im crying for, because its not you i lost,
its the man i thought you were.

its nights like these that help me wake up with a smile on my face knowing,
i'll be just fine without you