Loving the one I Hate

Please talk to me,
Baby don't leave me here alone.
I'm so scared now, please save me.
Call me on the phone,
Write me a letter, something..
Don't just forget about this.
I'm so tired today, thinking.
don't let me go, I need you now.
Comfort me please, I don't care how..
Give me life please, let me feel,
if only this feeling of love was real.
I'm crying inside my hollow shell,
I still remember the night, the night I fell,
fell in love with a girl with such pretty eyes.
I fell in love with you, you and your lies..
Get out of my mind, why didn't I see this?
How could I be so stupid, thinking love exists.
I cant help but want to die, I sit alone in my room and cry,
screaming is all I hear in my damaged mind..
I feel dead, have you heard everything I've said?
But what about the things I never say?
I never told you about any of those days..
The days I tried to let it all go,
the days I let my bitter blood flow.
This time I don't feel the same.
I feel kinda stupid, boring, and lame,
That I can't remember the way I came.
Do you remember the nights we had together?
The nights we used to laugh?
I remember, what happened to them?
I don't understand, look whats in my hand!
Another suicide instrument?
Now you understand what i meant?
I'm going crazy, I swear on everything.
I just wanted to hear you sing one more time,
I just wanted to feel what its like to be alive.
I just wanted everything, thats all.. right?
Remember when we got in that stupid fight?
Over who was wrong, on that rainy night?
I remember.. I remember now.. I do,
I remember what its like to dream about you..
Even if you didn't know how it feels to love someone,
WHY would you f*ck with someones mind, just for fun?
Well here I am.. heh, ready for this?
My final thought, my only wish..
To be with someone who really cares,
to be with someone who never wears,
wears a silly grin to mess with my mind.
I'll find her.. it will take a while,
because most likely, she's one of a kind..