Anew..

Sitting in my room alone
Nothing to do,
Can't pick up the phone

I start to think of you
And yesterday
In my dreams you're here to stay

Even though I broke your heart
I tried so hard
To mend the parts
You ran from me
Pushed me away
So I stopped trying
Day to day

I fight to keep away from you
But memories make me so blue
I turn to the bottle
My only friend
It brings me up
And down again

Sometimes I'm happy
But mostly sad
Loneliness and heartache
They're not so bad

I've found some things
To pass the time
To keep your lost love
Far from my mind

But you always return
In words and songs
Reminding me
Of every wrong

I see now
What we need to mend
This relationship
To start again

But no matter what I say or do
I just can't seem
To convince you
And my heart, inside
It aches so much
I wish I could show you
My deepest cut

The cut that sliced the farthest in
Was given by your angry hand
Although I was so true to you
Your angry words turned me black and blue

Everyday I wonder if
Different words would ever lift
Your heart back to its rightful place
To stand by me in god's great grace
To walk together in the shadow of the valley of death
To vow to each other everything we have left.
To put behind us bad memories past
To start anew
To make it last.