I used to be on drugs
I used to drink my problems away
I used to run from everyone
I was a loser
Lost and confused
With no where to go,
No one to turn to
All alone in the dimensions of Salem
I am coming from hell,
It was pretty bad
Late nights and bar fights turned my Dad mean
My brother was an ass and a pill popper, cokehead, and a drunk
We were all expected to live up to these standards; all of which we failed at
The other brother was just quiet
Mom was always depressed
But I always believed in karma
I always knew things would change for me
That gut feeling that said you will succeed
An outside force pushed me in a different direction
A force that finally said Drugs are stupid; you are better than that
A voice that said, Your Dad is crazy, its not your fault
A voice that said, This guy has problems, leave him.
I fear this rejection that has followed me everywhere
I worry for them, yes, all of the low lifes that brought me down
I fear my strength
I am confused as to where to go now.
I am completely alone in this
What path should I take,
What decisions should I choose?
All I know is I want better than before,
I need better,
I deserve better
I have a little bit of faith and my two feet
I am bound to land somewhere
I understand there is no turning back
I hope to accomplish all the stars in my sky,
I hope to meet all my dreams
I hope to find that perfect someone
Not the guy who is mean, calls me names, and pushes me around
A real prince charming
My future holds the whole world for me
Its like a candy shop, I can have it all
I will be true to myself, I will follow my heart, listen to the wind
And I will always know it can be worse and things always get better.
