Life on hold

Life on hold
caught in a vortex
of highs in lows
from pain, and frustration to putting on a front so no one can see the truth, so no one can see the pain
caught in a vortex of suicidal thoughts, and feelings of not being worth enough for anybody to care for you or for you to care for any one let alone your self. You know you need help but don't feel like your worth.
Your life's on hold and now one knows sometimes not even you.