I almost gave into my addiction today.
Like an alcoholic digging through all
My belongings for a "bottle ", a beer, just a sip
Of Nyquil...Anything for a fix...
Trying to find your number.
Alas! I find you in an old phone..thought I
Poured you out.
But there you are..
Staring me in the face,daring me to take a drink.
Almost sarcastically , I hear The Devil say , "Do it !"
.."Yes you'll feel so much better", "Do it now!".
My
Heart
Pounds
I press the call button- But I know it doesn't go through,
That phone is not active.
But still my heart races and I become hot.
I won't give into you..
I won't feed the addiction.
I am strong
Not like you..keep feeding your addiction...
I want you to die.
