My World Crumbling

My whole world is crumbling
Down at my feet
I know that i am mostly invisible to him
But i never knew this kind of defeat

I knew it would hurt
I just had no clue
That my best friend
Has to like him too

I know i shouldn't be angry
I know i shouldn't take it so bad
Yet the anger in me is crazy
And i know nothing but the bad

It is hard to explain
How i feel
This is the animal inside of me
And it is all too real

I know that i am different
I don't show my pain
But should it all have to be
Suffering and strain

I cannot seem to understand
Why i am so mad
My tears don't flow
And it is difficult to know

I just pictured a perfect guy
One to protect me
One to stay at my side
When the entire world goes against me

One who knows what it's like
To want nothing but silence
One who is looking for a cure
For all of the world's violence

Yet inside my heart
Is the worst rage there could be
And one single guy
Has set my rage free

I locked it up
Deep inside
Yet how it got unlocked
Is in the hands of this guy

I imagine nature
And i know nothing of peace
Yet when i see him
My knees go weak

It is like a black rose
My heart only knows
How the bad things go
And nothing of a peaceful show

It is like a million daggers
Are trying to rip out of my heart
The pain inside of me
It's just TEARING ME APART!

I don't know what to do
Yet all the signs just point to you
I am walking down the shadowed road
And i feel the shadow consuming me whole

My rage burns like a fire
My happiness is like my desire
Strong and independent i stand
With my world crumbling in my hands