I Hope I Never Have To Feel

I hope I never have to experience being raped
And live life remembering
My innocence that guy would take
I hope I never feel the touch of an unwanted hand
And those images that keep spinning
Of that aggressive man
I hope I never have to have a gun pointed at my head
And the guy screaming at me
As I lie in my bed
I hope I never experience not being able to fight back
Being a victim in my own house and my own body
And him telling me to relax
I hope I never experience not being able to scream
Trying to keep the tears inside
Praying its just a dream
I hope I never grow up with that man in my mind
Not being able to trust anyone
And that special guy I’ll never find
I hope I never have to live with all that pain
Being mentally paralyzed
And going insane
I hope I never have to think, “why me?”
And having so much anger towards that man
Because I was his victim just because he couldn’t get any
I hope I never have to experience the pain now and then
I hope I never have to experience being raped again

* This has never happened to me but I know a lot of girls go through this, and I felt compassion for girls that have been in this situation so I felt like it might help if I wrote about it.*