A dream or reality?

+i dreamt last night...
+my suicide+
+it was perfect & sharp+
+like a razor blade+
+the chair+
+the closet+
+the bar+
+the rope+
+the silence+
+it was brilliant+
+quick+
+painless+
+it brought no remorse+

I woke up today...
+feeling dizzy+
+a shock in my face+
+reality had hit me+
+i had only dreamt+
+felt empty+
+but with a smirk+
+that said so much.+