The shield of my heart

Everything i once stood for, was taken from me very quickly

that wall i made after.....was so strong, i felt, i believed, i made myself understand

that that was what i needed and that i woulnt let anyone brake it one more time.

it all happened so fast, i myself was suprise.

i couldnt function when i heard her voice, my sheild got broken so fast.

sadness consumes me, and i can not lie. tears roll down my eyes

and they burn, they stab, they slowly... kill my heart.

i miss her, she is so far away, i can not reach her.

i feel hopeless, empty, broken....so many feelings i have for her but none of them

want to be scatter anymore, none of them want to be given, shared.

i am done this time, i promised myself this once.

and i am not backing out of it, because i want it. i am through with all this...

i have had enough, i have had enough with people stepping all over my heart.