Sometimes i feel like I'm stuck
in a world I'm not supposed to be in
in a family that i wasn't to be born to
in friendships that weren't to be made.
i try to be the best person i can be
i listen even if i don't wanna hear
i laugh even if its not funny
i smile fighting off a frown
always there when anyone needs me
but what happens when i need someone
why is it that I'm treated like medicine
only used when needed.
why is it that when i try to let out whats inside
they end up putting more in than i let out.
i want someone to not just hear me.. but to listen
I'm not asking for advice.. just want someone to pay attention to me
for more than a breath.. for more than a second.. for more than someone
realizing they can relate and speaking.. not letting me finish.
for someone to truly listen.
not a word has to be spoken afterward.
silence is still listening.
silence is still being there for me.
cause they're still with me.
in the moment.. with me.
i want to cry in someones arms.
i want them to feel my shaking.
i want them to feel how much i hurt.
i want them to just hug me..
don't have to say one word.
cause silence is still being there.
i want someone to love me in a way they've never loved anyone.
i want someone to need me for not just the tears, but for the smiles too.
i want to mean something to someone when i mean nothing to myself.
