From Behind My Wall

I wish I knew how to stop loving you
How to hold people at a distance the way you do.
Because I hold you so close to me,
And so high in the waves of this ocean.
I can't see where I'm going,
but I don't care.
All I care about is if you'll make it to the surface.
And if you'll remember to take me with you.

I wish I knew how to live without you,
Without questioning life's worth.
How to watch each day go by,
knowing that I have a fall back plan.
But I threw mine away when I met you.
You were and are my only plan.
And I'm watching as my name is slowly smudged off your paper.
I hope you keep it hidden on your breath.

I wish my strength had its own guards,
And my heart to share a shield with yours.
It's so safe behind your eyes.
I know, because you let me in once before.
But I was pushed out before I could find where it was you kept my smile.
So I left a kiss for you.
I wonder if you know you have it...

I wish I knew how to stop loving you
How to hold people at a distance the way you do.
Because I hold you so close to me,
And so high in the tides.
I can't see where I'm going,
but I don't care.
All I care about is if you'll make it to the surface.
And if you'll remember to take me with you.
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No explanation... These are simply the words that I needed to say.