Future of frustraition

I thought of our future
The way you make a joke of me
Play with my temper and laugh at me
Using what you know against me
Frustrating angering me

Do you realize what anger is
Its hurt
Frustration
Confusion
A cause for a petty lie, but a lie none the less
All things I despise
Sometimes I want to hurt you and it melts away
Sometimes I want to punch you
And it melts away
Sometimes I want to scream
And it melts away
Melts away into smiles into I love you into sweetness

I thought of our future
Saw me screaming
Saw me silent storming off and slamming a door
Saw a little boy of 3 looking up in silence at his screaming parents
And I would be ashamed at such a scene, not at us, but for parents
And I thought NO Never to find someone ells before that occur

I thought of our future
And I saw you realizing just a slight wrong
When I sat at the kitchen table tears rolling down my eyes
Hurt at this scene you ask me what’s wrong?
Glancing up at you, my eyes slightly moving
But my mind gone, and so am I sitting there
Tears rolling down
Getting so angry I push it away
Taking everything with it
Leaving me slightly empty

Then you understood