Nothingness

Nothingness consumes my soul
where my heart used to be there's an empty hole
depression overtakes my mind
i know pretty soon there'll be nothing inside
emotions eat away at me
my constant lies distort my reality
happiness lies beyond my grasp
it can't get through this plastic mask
forbidden tears fall secretly
i suddenly leave my fantasy
I'm thrust upon the world wide awake
my poor misused body begins to ache
it gets harder to pretend every day
it's a struggle to make my smile stay
i know pretty soon I'll just give in
and fall down towards the darkness again