That gun is my friend

I never meant for it to get dis bad!
to always hide how inside i was sad!
i didn't think it was such a big deal!
i always thought no matter Wat it wood heal!
i never thought this pain wood stay!
it lives within me everyday!
theres nothing that can make it stop!
the only thing i can think of is to let myself drop!
lie in blood,and drowned in tears theres nothing
in the world that can get rid of these fears!!!!
but it seems to me no one can see!
how inside I'm not who i pretend to be!!!
cuz to tel u the truth i don't want to live!
but i don't wanna die~!i don't no y!
all i no is i can never stop the tears that fall!
so I'm just gonna lie in myself and crawl!
but i no one day itl come to an end!
one day that gun will be my friend!