Her Voice

What weighs heavy on my mind
Is from the telephone
What bothers me when I call
Is the reminder that he was not alone

I requested in an email
For him to show me if he cared
By erasing her voice from
The number they once shared

But to my disamay
Her voice is still on the phone
I guess he really cares for her
Even though they no longer share his home

I don't want to call again
He has made it clear
I feel like an intruder
From the one I held so dear

He has made his choice
And it does not include me
I think he has finally let go
Of our memory.

He is too consumed
With that little girl
But he has no idea
About how he rules my world

For years he has been on my mind
I love him more than ever
And she could never compete
With the storms that I have weathered

All the pain I feel inside
Every day my heart just aches
Everyday I am living with
All of my mistakes

Nobody can love him more
Than I do today
I would give almost anything
If he would come my way

There is absolutly nothing
That I want more in my life
Than to wrap my arms around him
And hold him tonight

But it is out of my hands
The next move is on him
If he chooses me
Then we will both win

I will smother him
With all the love I feel
Never will he wonder
If it is for real

My love is so bottled up
I need him in my life
I don't want to cry again
When I turn out the lights

But he has to show me
If he really cares
Could he possibly love me
After all these years

I think it is over
He doesn't care enough
My heart is too high maintenance
For someone out of touch

He would have granted my simple wish
If his heart was true
But her voice is still a part of him
And there is nothing I can do

It is my fault I walked away
From the love of my life
And I have to deal with it
Each and every night

I hope he has a change of heart
And he remembers me
I will spend my life
Making history.

But if he lost the feelings
There is nothing I can do
But I pray to God each day
That our love will be renewed