A love i need to find

Self doubt fills my day
burdening my dark soul
capture my true essence
leaving me anything but whole

mirrors surround my every move
and tears start to slide
my own self pitty and hate
at times is hard to hide

the scars on my body
tell stories i will forever conceal
for no one knows to truth
that i could never reveal

the evil thoughts invade
of fatness and ugliness
a day without i dont know
how bad it is i wont confess

i hate my huge ugly arms
my legs are so fat
my stomach bulges
i coulnd't have helped that

my eyes are to small
my face to square
pimples are invading
to me life's just not fair

little insecurities feel so big
all day you lye in bed
as words infect your perception
and your left walking dead