Secret Disfigurement - The real me

Cut my faith and tear my dreams,
My beauties tattered at the seems,
Hide behind a mask of lies,
And act at night that I donâ??t cry.

Smile as though I really mean it,
Try believe I donâ??t look like shit,
Just put on my make-up and braid back my hair,
And act as if I really donâ??t care.

Push them away, because of what I believe,
And just cover my scars with my sleeves,
I donâ??t get lonely, I donâ??t need someone,
Being in love just gets me hurt.

I hate the boys, not attracted to girls,
Keep my emotions out of a blur,
Thereâ??s no point to them now, Weâ??ll never be,
They never can love the real me.

My beauties tattered, my flesh deformed,
My skins is ice, instead of warm.
My eyes are dull, the tears just flow,
And the disfigurement I hate, you never know.

Itâ??s my little secret, no-one will find,
As its not visible to the prying eye,
You need to get close, but Iâ??ll push you away,
Thereâ??s only one in my heart and in there sheâ??ll stay.

Because once I was pretty and normal like you,
And once I didnâ??t cry like it was new,
I was born with it people and it wonâ??t go away,
And like her in my heart itâ??s with me to stay.

Iâ??ll live on my own and never have romance,
Iâ??ll hate the world and wonâ??t give anyone a chance,
If they donâ??t get close, then they canâ??t see,
Then you canâ??t push away the real meâ?¦