Alone again, alone

I'm addicted to the pain
I cause to feel okay
I'm addicted to the rain
Of tears that wont go away
I'm addicted to the days, I had known before
When I was somewhat sane
And I didn't have to close this door
You were once dead like me
You didn't give me room to breath
We were so close and so apart
We went nowhere but so very far

Now its all different
You're completely gone
Everything we started to hold
Washed away in your sun
Cuz I feel deeper into the dark
And you stayed her only to make your mark
Then you found your own cure
To everything that went away
And I didn't matter
So I stayed pure gray
You were once dead like me
Then you gave me room to breathe
We said so much but not enough
We gave out all the extra love

I'm worse off, without you
But you're better off, without me
I held you back
In this black eternity
Without you I'm lost
Without me you're found
Without you my happy is drained
Without me you feel okay
So Ill stay off to my own side
The feelings I still feel, Ill hide
You can keep walking if its what you want
I was just a mistake, another one of your wrongs
Ill heal the scars myself
Ill wipe the blood myself
Its alright
I don't need your help