My Heart Bleeds

Do you ever wonder why
This life is so long?
All you do is sit and cry
And listen to your favorite song

Replaying it over and over
Until theres no more hurt and pain
And wishing life would end
Because its driving you insane

When I herd that your gone
My heat filled with pain and fear
Not wanting to believe the words
Thinking I wont have my brother near

Moms started screaming and crying
My heart dropped to the floor
The lump in my throat it hurt
My whole body got sour

The tears didnt stop coming
I didnt no what to do or say
I fell down on my knees yelling
Make it go away!!!

I wanted to hear your voice
For you to tell me it wasnt true
I just sat there in disbelief
And thought about all we been through

Without you by my side
My whole world just crashed
The only thing I feel is
My heart on the floor smashed

So whats left of me
But an empty soul
My brother I lost that day
Without you Im not whole

I sit here wanting to die
Just hopping Ill get better
Just crying and crying
Writing a poem or a letter

A beautiful baby girl
You left for the world to see
A spit ten image of you
But she has no daddy

My little angel Adryan
Is what you left us with
And when I look in her eyes
My heart begins to lift

She gives me hope that
I will see you once more
I know you are waiting
Just standing at heavens door

So once again Im lost
Just wanting to end my life
But if I make a stupid decision
Like getting out that knife

Will I get to see you
After everything is done
Will we spent forever together
Or will that ruin the fun

So can I afford to risk it
My life is on the line
Just hoping to see you again
But without you Im dying

I guess well both have to see
Because sometimes it hard for me
Theres a big whole in our family
And without you MY HEARTS BLEEDS