I'm Sick

I'm sick of running to the phone, hoping that it's you.
You're in every thought that I have and everything I do.

I'm sick of writing you letters and not getting a reply,
Never hearing from you at all, leaving me wondering why.

I'm sick of listening to the radio because our song is always on,
I'm sick of how strongly I feel, even when you're gone.

I'm sick of all this crying, every day and night,
But my heart is now too weak to even put up a fight.

I'm sick of having to go to sleep because you're always in my dreams,
They're all intentionally pulling us apart, this is how things seem.

I'm sick of hoping that it's a joke because my hopes get too high,
When really I have to understand that we've already said goodbye.

I'm sick of wondering how you feel and if you feel the same.
It feels like we're both players in one big screwed up game.

I'm sick of feeling like I'm losing you a little more each time.
I'm sick of questioning everything, and if I can call you mine.

I'm sick of all this heartache because all it brings is tears,
I'm sick of every breakdown, and giving into my fears.

I'm sick of all this waiting because everyday seems too long,
When you come home and look for me, don't be surprised to find me gone.

Rachel Crombie 5//9//07