Pretend love

I'm looking through tears
and screaming through a dry mouth
the cut was too deep
its getting darker now
my head is getting fuzzy
my words slur and i try to yell
i promised i wouldn't go that close
but the pain was just too much
i spent days on end
sticking a finger down my throat
so i could be as beautiful as her
but I'm tired of the acid
and I'm tired of being on the ground
for someone who wont even look my way
but i found a solution
to make his world die
i know he doesn't care
so neither will i
he'll regret the pain he put me through
and the tears he brought from my eyes
date me oh he wouldn't dare
thats clearly social suicide
so I'll kill his rep
the girls wont like him for long
when they see what he made me do
but that's what you get when you pretend to love
someone who actually falls for you