My Sunglasses -the mask-

My Sunglasses -the mask-

Big and plastic you cover my eyes
As the tears takes a stroll down my face,
Take a hold of my heart and rip it to pieces.
You compliment my face, draw people away
From the pain that my heart sings as I lye in
The rain.

I try so hard to be something,
To be someone in your eyes.
I try to make you happy,
To be the perfect daughter,
But all I get is slaughtered.

You don't understand the way I think,
You don't know me.
You don't know my heart,
Or the my deepest hopes.
You never say you love me
And you expect me to think you do.
You say you show it not say it,
But I say shove it,
Take that somewhere else.
I just want to hear: "we're so proud
Of you."
I want your approval,
Your trust, your respect.
Is that too much to ask?

At a blink of an eye another tear rolls,
Controls me.
I pick you u[p in my hands and begin
Again,
The mask-
The mask of you.
You my sunglasses
That cover my eyes,
Cover the tears and hide my hurt from
The world.

My innocence shattered,
My trying to be a great daughter for you
Ruined,
Plowed into the ground.
I act like I don't care,
Like the fact that "I love
You" isn't there,
Isn't even in the taste of
The air.

I am torn,
To do what I have to,
To leave this world
And make something of
Myself,
To prove to you that I am
So much more than you
Give me credit for.

Plastered beneath this smile,
Is a girl ho just wishes,
Wishes she could be something
-More than just an everyday girl-
Someone that makes miracles,
And makes people
Want to live just another day.
Someone that someone is
Proud of.

My mask
Shows the whole world
That I'm fine,
That I don't need my family,
I don't need the people that
Push me away.

My world was light,
Now it darkens as you hide my
Face from them,
I don't want to show my pain,
Or the fact that I care what you think of
Me...

At a blink of an eye another tear rolls,
Controls me.
I pick you up in my hands and begin
Again,
The mask-
The mask of you.
You my sunglasses
That cover my eyes,
Cover the tears and hide my hurt from
The world.

**family issues....**