I Hate

I hate the way I look. I hate how when I look into the mirror I feel like throwing up. I hate how I'm so fat. I hate how I feel like I have no control over my life. I hate how when I try to lose weight I fail instantly. I hate how I never feel full when I eat something. I hate how I feel the need to eat whenever I see someone else eating. I hate how I always feel like everyone is looking down on me. I hate how people judge me and don't even try to get to know the real me. I hate how I'm always the awkward one out of a group of people. I wish I felt like I belong. I wish I could just be normal. I wish I wasn't as different as I am from everyone else around me.