Left Behind

I believe that our conversation
Was the first of our goodbye
Even though it was argumentive
And a sure sign of the ending of our time

Finally we connected
We both used up all our spins
We are becoming used to
The beginning of the end

You are frustrated with me
Because I don't want to come home
You chose to yell at me
Complaining you are all alone

All you really want
Is someone who is there for you
With a normal job
With no overtime that is due

After five years in this field
you still do not have a clue
you still disrespect me
And dismiss the troubles that we go through

There is no satisfaction
There is no sacrifice
you really do not miss me
When you go to sleep each night

You want me to be home
So you can feel complete
With a full house of family
But you refuse to see defeat.

You only really want me
To be there when you sleep
you never live up to
the promises you keep

Tonight you hung up on me
And said for me to never call again
I truly accept this as the beginning
Of our happy end

I respect your wishes
I will show you to the door
I will help you pack
I am not yours anymore

I moved on years ago
Regardless of your presence
You think you have a hold on me
But the ending is our essence

I want you to leave
You give me no other choice
It is time for us to realize
That we need to divorce

I don't want this marriage
Because it is so fake
It is just a replica of the real thing
And for me a huge mistake

I need much more in life
Than you could ever give
I am tired of choking on
the will for me to live

Depression and anxiety
Consumes me every day
All I really want now
Is for you to walk away

I know life won't be perfect
Without you by my side
Occasionally you are my partner
But not enough for me to survive

I have to be alone
So I can find myself
I need to stop worrying
About everybody else

But why do I express this
For it is all about you
You will never recognize
the hell you put me through

So tell your fans I walked away
Tell them that it's over
tell them to admit -
I am not a four leaf clover

Tell them goodbye
Then you should walk away
Please do not look back
On our yesterday.

It is really over
There is no chance for you and me
We have no hope for the future
And I warned you endlessly

but you had no regard
You refused all of my signs
You are the one
That I left behind.