The feeling of self harm....

The feeling of self harm is unexplainable,
it doesn't hurt to me anymore,
Im slowing becoming unstable,
My life is turning into a war.

The feeling of self harm is a Mental Strain,
It seems have no control over me,
Cutting Relieves my continues pain,
I count my cuts 1,2,3.

The feeling of self harm is strong,
It makes me put on a fake smile,
When I want to cry all along,
I just tell myself I can wipe it off in awhile.