Contradiction within

I Dont give a damn what you do.
I made you mine someway
but i dont wanna make you stay
if you wanna go away.

dont give a damn what you do
i know,
and nothing can change my mind
you can,
and theres nothing more i'd really want to say...

why is it always this part?
no-one ever said it would'nt be this hard.
but i just wanted my dreams to be..
a little bent towards reality.

but
im calling you in the middle of the night
and im standing here outside your door.
and i dont think that my heart can take much more.
Now where are you that im calling out?
i want you here 'cause im falling out
i want you here
but im not so sure,
'cause i dont think that your heart can take much more.

i'll stop thinking we were a thing.
i'll start hiding, my broken wings.
i'll learn to fly with them,
and wenever im falling
i'll dream of you.

i'll stop sinking, into this feeling.
i'll stop concealing, and start believing.
and i'll learn to live,
and whenever im calling,
i'll pretend the one listening is you