Repeating goodbyes

This smile is not from you
I guess I finally forgot you
So then why do I write more
About you, whose not supposed to matter

Hes in my head
Not you
I love him instead
And you know
Well maybe I lied
But I cant make you cry
Like I can him
Cuz you were already finished

So why'd you come back
Are you ready to face the facts
That yes, you've been replaced
And I'm sad still
When I see you face to face

But I'm not who I was
You were just a stupid crush
These black eyes aren't your fault
It doesn't matter that you never called

I got past you
I am through
I don't need his pity
Just cuz I know you never think of me

I don't need his shoulder to cry on
I'm okay, I'm fine now

You have no idea what I turned into
Hearts aren't really love filled
Or ice cold blue

So again I have to say to you
Goodbye okay
Goodbye
Leave me here
I wont die