Secrets

The secrets of my past bang at my heart fighting to get out
i want to cry but my tears refuse to come
the pain so strong i am defenseless
almost one year to go
scared to be free i tremble
why am i afraid to be away from my hell
the fiery pits that i call home
i don't understand the feelings that thrive inside of me
the secrets,like knives jabbing through whats left of my heart
sadness floods in, I'm drowning
the water almost over my head
gasping for air,
i try to break the glass in front of me
to be free, but i stall,
you live in hell for so long
your afraid to find out what it is like to be Happy