Burnt Rubber (Our Final Goodbye)

I can still smell the burnt rubber in the summer heat
I can still see the place where I fell to my feet
I still hear the piercing crash within my dreams
And remember just how much it hurt me.

I can still remember the frail sound of your voice
assuring me that this was no evitable choice
I still remember crying tears, so cold and so blue
as you whispered in my ear, "I'm sorry, and I'll always love you."

I can still remember the way that your hand was so cold
I grasped it so tightly; I was afraid to let go
I can remember the chills running down my spine
At the moment your hand fell from mine.

I can still remember the smell of the air
it made me feel nauseous, so cold, and so bare
a feeling of distress; alone, and so wrong
an unending sadness that to this day isn't gone.

I still remember how I yelled as you drove away
I regretted it as soon as I turned the other way
And as I ran after you, the car burst to flames
All I could do was pray that you were okay.

I still remember my heart breaking that very next morning
the look on your mothers face hit me without warning
there were so many people that loved you just as I
When I try to forget you, I let a part of me die.

I can now feel the sting of the tears in my eyes
But instead of showing them, I keep them in disguise
Like an actress, with pain in her heart, but a smile on her face
People say I'm staying strong, but I'm just staying in place.

I will always remember that dim September day
The day went from sunny, to ending in rain
we tenderly whispered our final goodbye
for what we knew, would be the very last time.