Please fight the addiction mama. u have alot of talent dont throw it away....... I know im just a stranger what do i know? all u can ever do in life is try to help and extend your hand but its up to that person to grab on to it or leave your hand dangling. Good luck and no drug can ever defeat the human will to persevere.......... u can defeat it, it can only defeat you if you allow it too. nice write and keep it up.