She's All I Got

I don't understand the way she thinks,
Suicide thoughts due to issues.
Making me feel like crap through words
Doesn't she understand how I feel?
Does she know she's all I got?
How am I going to live without her?
She's all I got in this messed up life!!
I lover her! Doesn't she know that?!
Maybe I don't say it as often,
But I love you grandma,
You're the only person that I have close to a mom
I love you.........