I'm so vulnerable.
so scared this is going to fall apart, i love you and all, but I'm afraid with you having my heart. there's little things i regret, not telling you more. theres little things I'm going to miss like you and your stupid laugh. I'm afraid after summer, i won't get those back. I'm not like all those other girls, i no you agree, I'm not anything your use to, which is why i wonder how you fell for me. I'm annoying at times, i no i get seriously loud. But you've dealt with it all and it makes me proud. I'm quiet at times ..like i have nothing to say, and there's even been times i was just to afraid to speak. because loving you has made me strong, and at times so weak. I'm amazing at times, i hope you would agree, I've put up with things that i didn't deserve. I trusted you no matter what I've heard. I never call you, and i hope it doesn't make you mad, but I'll just miss you more if i hear your voice. so i never call you because i have no other choice. I'm into you, so into you it's crazy, I'm so disappointed in how you made me feel lately. I want you to be the one, but maybe at times i don't feel you are. i want you to be the one, please don't be alarmed. And so I've poured my heart out, and maybe I'll lose everything..every last bit. But i wouldn't stick around if i thought i couldn't handle it. I love you Remington more than i ever knew i could. I'm scared though, that laying my heart out has done no good.
