It's funny how time can make you change
your feelings and your views.
You think that when your all grown up
it's a change that's inside you.
When your younger and your growing
and want to be like no other.
But then you start maturing more
you start to turn to your mother.
I never wanted to be like her
because I thought she was so mean.
But now through these eyes, I see her in a way
in a way I have never ever seen.
She has such COURAGE, such STRENGTH
with such an INNER BEAUTY.
I look at old photos of her way back then,
and say "DANG, my mother was a CUTIE".
But as the years go rolling by
and life changes our course.
those feeling I had back then for her,
make me ashame and somewhat remorse.
But my mom has always told us kids
to be the best you can be.
she says those feelings I felt back then
let go of them and just be free..
Here I am now grown and married
and I just turned forty four.
I now found my mom inside myself
what daughter could ask for anything more.
I'm so proud of her, & love her so
she has so much inspired me.
I want so much for her to just fly,
to enjoy her life and be free.
Free from chains that that shackle her down
and strangle her with their embrace.
it hurts me so much to see it show
on my moms such beautiful face.
So I pray one day and ask the lord
that she will finally see.
There's so much out there in life,
Like Forest Gump, "Run Mom Run & be free".
So mom now its time for me to say
you raised us kids well, you can see.
So go live your life and be happy mom
I've found the best in YOU, now in ME
Lanie
5-26-04
