How Could They, Mommy?

My dear, darling mommy
why do you hurt me so?
why do you beat me so?
at night i cry and cry
during the day you yell and yell
i love you mommy, don't you love me?
i try so hard, but i'm not good at anything

i have no friends
the kids say i look weird
they say i have bags on my face
how could they know, mommy?
that you do put bags around my face?

the girls say i talk weird
they say i have no tongue
how could they know, mommy?
that you cut my tongue out?
how could they know, mommy?
when i've never even opened my mouth?

the guys say i'm ugly
they say i was mutilated by a monster
but mommy, why would they call you a monster?
how could they, mommy?

my teachers say i am dumb
they say i hear the ringing of a tiny violin
how could they know i hear ringing?
every morning for hours you grab my hair,
and bang my head against the ground,
is that what a tiny violin sounds like?
how could they know, mommy?

you beat me with fishing poles
you bind my hands and feet together with floss
you feed me gray ooze out of the trash
you tell me how much you hate me
you duct tape me to my bed
my bath is a bath of tar
my clothes are paper bags

how could they know that a wall of glass
makes beating me so hard
i see you in white and black, with heavy bracelets
mommy, i miss your beatings
they were the only signs of love you gave me

my dear and lovely mother
why do you hurt me?
why do you beat me?
now, i wait for the day to hold your hand
even if you break every single one of my fingers again
i miss you mommy, don't you love me mommy?

i love you mommy........