I hate life

I hate life...
i smoke that joint and pop them pills because i feel that if your high it takes you out of reality,
i hate life...
i use blades to cut and i hear voices and they tell me to, i cant go to sleep at night because i hear things and when i close my eyes i see dead people,
i hate life...
when you look at me you see beauty, love , happiness. But how come when i look at myself i see uglyness, pain, and sadness?
i hate life...
i cant even wear a short sleeve shirt without people asking me about my scars, Why is life so hard?
i hate life...
i cant even look at myself in the Morrow because i feel like I'm going to barf,
i hate life...
i want to grow up to be someone, i don't want to be a bum on the street. begging for quarters, i don't want people offering me water because i want something stronger. i don't rum to make my pains go away,
i hate life...
why is life like this? little girls getting raped and abused,
i hate life...
Man I'm going to run with yous