Lost in it all

There were so many tears,
Sometimes they would never end,
Like it all would just end in a fight,
I knew it all along it was never going to last,
All we ever did was scream,
Then say i love you,
I just acted like it didn't bother me,
Like i never cared when he screamed.

I was lost in it all thinking i finally got it right,
But knowing all along it was never meant to be,
I thought i had it all but all it was wanting to be loved,
All i wanted was for someone to hold me,
But the whole time i was in his arms all i could think,
Was how much it hurt just to look him in the eyes,
I though it would work out till it ended,
Then we tried again and it happened again,
All i could do was think how much he hurt me.

I always thought things would be ok,
Or i just wanted them 2,
I just wanted someone who would see me,
But sometimes i feel like no one will,
I want it to work but now i know it never will,
Because when i look in his eyes all i see is her,
I don't think anyone understands how it is,
To shed you blood and there was never anyone,
There to say i love you and it will be ok.

Sometimes it feels like even my friends,
Don't care i don't think they will ever get me,
Why i can't i make it right show people i am someone,
All i get when it comes to me and him is heart ache,
I don't think i can take another heart ache,
It seems like me and him will never be right.

Like i said before I'm lost in it all and can't get out,
All i want is 2 lay down and get it over with,
I want someone to save me from this all,
Just wanting someone to tell me i am beautifully,
And say i love you and mean it for a change.

I'm lost in it all and can't find my way back.