With a Smile

As I turn and fall
The past comes into view
Violently pulling me
Into something new

What is this place I once called home?
It all seems so distant
My harsh breathing and clammy hands
Make me feel so nonexistent

Black and white
Have painted my skies
The sun stays behind
All the clouds of lies

I felt so special
Like no one could touch me
Now I struggle to get up
And I find it hard to see

Where is hope
When I need it most
God has left me here
To sit and roast

My ear splitting screams
Fall on deaf ears
Just take away this life
And all these worthless tears

I don't want them anymore
They only bring back the past
As well as how I was doomed
To finish this race dead last

As my world begins to spin
I feel my heart go numb
My last dying wish
Is for a place less glum

Darkness consumes my soul
Covering my entire face
It's okay though
Because with a smile I leave this place