Depression again

Why is it me??
why not you??
how can this be??
can it be true??

as i lie awake alive
but dead!so many things
i wish were never said!!

can i stay with hope??
or should i give in??
just leave me alone!
i got no more time to spend!!

Ive lost all hope
nothing to give!
pain and misery is
what i live!!

so just leave me alone!
and walk away!!don't look
back!!its all OK!!don't ask why!
just say good bye!!

Ive lost it all!!
so please don't give me a call!!